Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in ledhead621's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
3:20 pm	Felt like sharing this with you ok, i wrote this, so... yeah... read it, and mike, don't make any of your "assumptions", that goes for everybody as well... "Your Heart's Disaster" Look into my eyes Tell me what you see Are you seeing truth? Cause it's really me There's no where else to go So why're you leaving here Nothing left to see NOthing left to fear So run Just run and go away I know you didn't love me And now i hate you everyday Chorus* Cause I keep falling away (falling away) Into your heart's disaster I keep falling away (falling away) And I can take it no more I keep falling away (falling away) Into your heart's disater I keep falling away falling away And I can take it no more I keep falling for you... But I'll still be here waiting Waiting for you my dear I don't want you back But it's time to mend the tears Waiting for the bus To bring you back alive But what if it crashes And you don't survive? I'll still be here waiting Singing this song of grace Longing for your touch Your sweet embrace, Cuase i keep falling away(falling away) Into your heart's disaster I keep falling away(falling away) And I can take it no more I KEEP FALLING FOR YOU! (instrumental break) *softly* look into my eyes tell me what you see is it the truth? cause it's really me there's no where else to go so why're you leavin here nothing left to see nothing left to fear *Chorus one more time... THE END! Current Mood: content...that means im full Current Music: "Cemetary Walk"-MCR (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
7:22 pm	Things I've learned Well, it's been a long school year, and i've learned alot of things, not academics, i mean about life. i think that i'd like to share them with you now. 1)Stay with the friends you hang out with in high school, they will be there for the rest of your life. 2) NEVER insult the cafeteria food while you are still standing in the serving line. 3)Try to avoid doing something that will earn you a nickname in the PE locker room, it will follow you every where. 4)Band people aare alot cooler at New London High 5)You are considered a lower class citizen if you are on JV baseball. 6)You are considered a lower class citizen if you wear a zeppelin t-shirt. Half the kids at new london can't even spell "led" 7) Ms. Kook is crazy. No, she isn't crazy, she's a FUCKING NUTBALL! 8)Don't try to win a freshman over an upper classmen. They always pull rank. 9)The girl next door thing never works. It'll never happen. 10)Take up a cool instrument, like drums, or guitar, or if you can play a mean jazz/old, old school rockabilly/ or blues piano, that makes you just a little more cooler. If you don't play an instrument, get a good knowledge of music, and bs poetry and thinking "deep". that will make you a little cooler. Current Mood: Cheese is good... Current Music: "Wasted"- Paranoid Social Club (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
7:25 pm	Regret and Remorse Okay, a word to the wise, if you have an idea, and you want to do something, go ahead and do it. I say this because if you don't do something that you really wnat to do, someone else will do it before you, and you'll feel like shit. abosolute shit. How do i know? Because recently, i didn't take a chance, and someone else did, and now i'm regretting it because i'm such a pussy. There was this freshman, and she was pretty. My friends were encouraging me to say something. and at least let her know who I am. Well, these past couple of weeks, all the seniors have been looking for dates to prom. Yeah, you guessed it, some senior asked her, and of course she said yes. I mean, if you were a freshman and some senoir guy asked you to prom, don't tell me you wouldn't say yes, you know you would. But the thing that got me was that i was talking to the senior's brother, and he's like, "you never had a chance anyway." Thanks alot asshole. I know it's my own fualt for not opening my mouth and saying something to her, but still, that pisses me off, people saying that i can't do anything. I mean, i still have hope, he's going to be in college, and she'll still be in high school, and this summer, if things work out with me the way i plan, come fall, i might actually have a shot. But, as of now, like all the other times, i only have myself to blame. Current Mood: dazed and confused Current Music: "Nightprowler"- AC/DC (Comment on this)
Monday, May 16th, 2005
1:59 pm	Reflections It's 10:30, and I'm on the bus thinking. It's been a long weekend, and I want to sleep, but for some reason I don't feel tired. Either it was the coffe from the rest stop, or the movie Ray on the televsion, I couldn't tell, but I i think it had something to do with what I was thinking about. There's this girl, and I've known her for all of my life, since she's lived across the street from me since we were in kindergarten. I had a thing for her in the fourth grade, and she knew it, but it was "puppy love" as they say, and I got over her soon enough. Over the past 3 years, these feelings have started to slowly creep back. I'm more mature to realive what these feelings mean, and I don't think I like them. Now,in my eyes, the girl is pretty, wait, beautiful. You can't say that she's like, porn star hot, because she has an intense, natural beauty. But she wasn't always this way, but as all of us know too well, puberty changes alot of things. Any way, these feelings reached a peak earlier this year, when i told a friend that i like this girl. Well, it was the wrong person to tell, and she found out. She put up, what I'd like to say was a "bitch sheild", her way of either saying she didn't like you , or hiding behind the fact that she is afraid of someone having these feelings for her, and she is afraid to accept and share them. I hate to say it, but this sheild stared to work, and I started to not like her. It got to the point where I hated her, because she was treating me like absolute shit. I finally told her that i know she doesn't like me, and i don't like her, but she doens't need to treat me like shit. We didn't talk for like weeks after that. Over a month or so i would say, she's been acting nicer towards me. And i've noticed my self thinking about her, not in a perverted way, just thinking about what it would be like to be with her, on a level more than friends. It's wiered, because I'm afraid of these feelings because I don't want to go through what i did before and I'm afraid that if something does materialize between us, and then we grow apart, that the way we view each other as friends will be comprimised. It's wierd not wanting to feel for something that you want, and don't know what to do. That's why i probably couldn't sleep. Current Mood: i have no idea whats going on Current Music: "Highway to Hell"- AC/DC (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
9:17 pm	... i'll thin kof something It's bee a while since i've been here, and i really don't know what to write, so i'm gonna fill this in with random bull. Okay. Well, i hate school, I hate women, i hate jerks that think they're hot shit, and Ian has a girl friend before i do. That's what I'll write about, those last 3 things, since they basically tie into each other. Okay. I hate women now because, well, they are heartless. If a guy really feels something for some one, and they express those feelings, then either the chick puts him down politely, or smashes him. The latter usualy happens to me. Las time some one found out my feelings, my life was a living hell. It's okay now, because i got over her, but it sucked. And since shicks these days are so superficial (I don't care if any of you detest, because you are) that a guy like me has no chance. There is this one girl that I like, and all of my friends keep on telling me to give it a shot. But i already know she doesn't like me, even though i don't even talk to her (i'll tell you sometime latter, it's a long story). I'm too afraid of getting smashed to bits, so i won't try anything, at least not now. Over the summer i'll change my self and try the next school year, but as of now, i'm fucked. I hate it. Just like i hate overconfident jerks, like lisandri. He wears abercrombie shirts and he thinks that he's hot shit. Just because they are tight as fuck and are pink doesn't mean you're cool. And chicks hate you lisandri. Vanessa doesn't like you, and no one beleives that bullshit story of that chick at work. And degrading chicks by randomly saying that they're overweight just shows that you are an ass. Now that i've got that out of the way, next... Ian has a girlfriend. Yeah, Ian of all people, the same guy that we degraded for years and years now finally has his. The only people who can still say something is J-Mart, because he gat past the dating stage. The rest of us are just left to keep our mouths shut. Yeah, I know it sounds like I'm a little jealous, because i sort of am, but at the same time, I'm kind of happy for him. So good for you Ian. Best of luck with you and Johanna. Current Mood: frustrated..whenisitmyturn? Current Music: "A New Hope"- Blink 182 (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
7:30 pm	BASE BALL BITCHES! Man, spring is right around the corner, and you know what that means. No, not easter you idiots, BASEBALL! It's like, the quintesential american game. Base ball is defined by singular heores, something that america traditionally puts the emphasis on. Babe ruth, ted williams, jonny bench, joe dimaggio, roberto clemente, honus wagner, rollie fingers, cy young, hoyt wilhem, bill mazeroski, carlton fisk, willie mays, all are considred gods in the anals of basebal history. The food gives base ball its charm, hot dogs salthered in mustard, ketchup, and the occasional sauerkruat, vendors roaming the isles putting on a near broadway-worthy production just so they can sell a bag of peanuts, a cold coke, or beer (depending on your age). Staying through for all nine innings, even though you know the home team is going to loose any way. This is what the game is all about. Every other game comes down to beating out the clock, score as many points as you can in a certain amount of time. Base ball is not constricted by time, theoretically, a game of baseball can go on forever. Baseball is about the struggle of the hometown team, something that brings the community together, because it has something for everyone. I hope to play this year. Hopefully, i'll play for the high school. I know that ball isn't going to take me anywhere, but as long as i get my yearly fix of at least playing in 20 games, the rest of the year can be crap for all i care. If i can't play for the school, then i'll play for 16-19. Whatever i do end up playing, i play it because it's something i like to do. To me, it's not competitive, it's fun. I can't wait till the season starts. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 28th, 2005
9:17 pm	NO SNOW! Okay. I live in New England, so I should be used to weather like this by now. But after a while, it gets annoying. Yes, you know what I am talking about, snow. I am begining to like it less and less. Now, if you know me, then you know I like to snowboard, so how could I hate snow? Well, when you have to shovel it evertime it snows, it starts to suck. At least when I'm on the mountain, I don't have to worry about picking the snow up, because it's supposed to be there. When i leave here, i don't think that i will ever come back. For college, I want to go to either the Florida Institute of Technology, or the Air Force Academy. Now, in Florida, it obviously doesn't snow, so I won't have to worry about it there. But the AFA is in COLORADO. Yeah, I know it snows there, but I won't have to worry about shoveling it all. And Colorado's got premo boarding conditions, so that's a plus. If I can't go to either of those places, I'll run away to somewhere in the Caribbean, and learn to fly seaplanes from a french man named Clifford. Then I'll start my own island cargo transport buisness, and i won't have to worry about SNOW! I'm really starting to get sick of this white shit. Current Mood: i hate snow... Current Music: "Wheel In The Sky"- Journey (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
8:26 pm	Valentines Day Valentines day, yeah, it's tomorrow. It sucks. Alot. Well, for me at least. In elementary, it was all cutsie wootsie, but, you never really had any emotional feelings for any one. In middle school, it was okay. You'd give some girls an anonymous note, box of chocolates, something, to let them know you liked them. The last time i did that was in 8th grade. I got shot down, miserably. In high school, it's a whole different ball game. You have to compete ferociously with other guys that are 50 times better looking than you, or have more experience. And the girls ends up falling for the jerk anyway, you know the one, the guy who just sees a hot girl, and wants to love em and leave em. Yeah, that sucks seeing that. Especially if you're a guy like me. Last year, I gave this girl some poems, and yeah, she thought they were cool, but we were just going to be friends. She goes out with the typical high school dream now. This year, I dunno what i'm gonna do. I used to like this one girl, but she's a control freak, and kind of bitchy. So, I dropped my feelings for her. But there is this freshman, she's pretty, but not, like, tight-sweater-vavoom pretty. Maybe I'll try to talk to her. But, i don't think she even knows who I am. I don't know, I'll just take tomorrow in stride. Wish me luck.... Current Mood: optimistic... well sort of Current Music: "More Than A Feeling"- Boston (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
5:43 pm	Live and Let Die Live and let die. That's what this week's theme is. Yeah, it's a good song (i'm refering to the original McCartney version for James Bond, no the Guns n' Roses one), but do people really know what it means? Well it can have many meanings to the open minded person, but for me, it means, live, and let other things die. Like old relationships, old crushes(that refers to me), bad times, asshole friends, any thing that has brought you down, let it die, and live your life. A month ago, I was sitting, and thinking about myself. Yes, I know i'm out of shape, but right then it really hit me. I'm sick of it. I'm letting this part of my life die, and I'm going to live. It's been great. I bought new jeans the other day, and they're already sagging past my ass, and they're not purposely made to be baggy either. I've lost ten pounds. I broke ten minutes for my mile, which means i cut a full minute off my mile time in the fall. I feel wonderful. I'm more confident in dealing with the opposite sex now, which is a definate plus. So yeah, the moral of this whole thing is, change your life, let the shitty times die, and let the good times live (or roll, which ever you prfer). Current Mood: it's been a while Current Music: "Hollywood Hills"- Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 30th, 2005
1:14 pm	Something I am finally good at I have finally found something that i am finally good at! drum roll please..... it's snowboarding! Yeah, that's right, i'm hip, i extreme. This is like, the only thing that none of my friends can do better than me, except for karl, he's a little better than i am. Yeah, that's right whalen. I'm better than you at something! Roll that up and smoke it! Man, I went to powder ridge yesterday with karl, and it was soo awesome. It was better than the last time i went. Probably because they had all the trails open instead of two this time. But man, it was soo great. Almost nothing else can top the feeling that you get when you're flying down the mountain soo fast that you feel like you have no controll and you'll never be able to stop. The occaisional wipe out sucked, but when it happens, I just got back up and continued. Having your own board helps out alot too. It's not like when you have a rental and you know that you have to give it back at the end of the day. With your own board, you can take it anywhere, you form your own special bond, you become one with it. Going with frieds is also a plus. You can be flying down the mountain, and suddenly catch an edge, and take the thrashing of your life, but when you look up, and see the same thing happen to a your friend, it just makes you crack up and realize that at least someone else is in the same boat. Like yesterday, when karl and i found this area with a shit load of powder. He went down fist, and was going down with out any problem, then suddnely he hit a really dde srift and fell on his face. I was laughing at him so hard, that i wasn't paying attention and fell ddown too. but we both luaghd at it, and it was cool. Man, i can't wait for this weekend when i got to ski sundown. It's going to be so frickn awesome... Current Mood: hell yes Current Music: "Hey Joe"- Jimi Hendrix (Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
8:15 pm	Revolution, I say, Revolution! Yesterday, as you all as americans probably know, Georde Wlaker Bush was sworn in for hi second term as president. Yes. for more miserable years with this hick. I was in algerbra on the 20th, and i forgot what we were tlaking about, and someone said that the money should go to the troops. And i replied that they woudn't need it if they weren't over there in the first place. I'm not saying that I'm a peaceloving hippie, but if your going to fight for something, fight for something worthwhile. World War II, in my opinion was the last real war that we had a reason to fight in. Now i am not dihonering the fine vets that have served this country, but we barely hung on during Korea, and in Vietnam, it was like the big slow fat kid getting kicked in the shins by the skinny fast kid (Charlie), and there was no point to the fight. That's what Iraq is like now. Sure we kicked out Saddam Huessein (i don't give a fuck if i spelled it wrong), but we didn't realize how big the repercussions would be. Everday, fanatics are blowing up Humvees with homemade mines, and are driveing abulances full of explosives into people trying to register and vote in their first free elections. It is a sick, sad world. On top of it all, marines and rangers are still on a wild goosechase in afghanistan looking for Osma bin Laden. Hello, we found Saddam in a hole, how about checking one of those for Osama? Hell, we already know that he's hiding in a hole, it's just htat it's a really deep one. We should've found him by now if our president wasn't too busy choking on fucking pretzles. All of the things that have happened under the Bush administration is like one big scooby-doo mystery. "If it wasn't for those meddling terrorists..." Somene get Goergie boy a scooby snack, but make sure that it's not shaped like a pretzle so that he doesn't choke on it. Researchers and historians have studied recent events and compared it to other times and history and have come up with this conclusion: The next twenty years will be the worst time of the modern age, if not the whole history of man kind. Followed by these twenety years will be an extensive period of peace, peace so pure, that no other golden age will be able to compare with it. If this is true, my generation is in for the time of it's life. We can change this my friends, We have the power. If all this trouble doesn't stop with us, than it never will. That is why i call for revolution. Revolution of our hole world. And we will start with this country. Time to clean it up, time to throw a buckett of cold water on the faces of the washington bearuacrats (i don't care if i spelled that one wrong too). The second amendment, the one that says we have the right to keep and bear arms is basically there for not only a militia, but if our government ever needs a change, we have the right to do it. Even if it means BLOODY REVOLUTION. Come, it's time. It has to start some where, it has to start somehow. What better place than here. What better time than now. Current Mood: very, very pissed off Current Music: "Helena"-My Chemical Romance (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
7:38 pm	MID TERMS! DEAR GOD! I hate midterms. I fuckin hate them. Luckily i only have one tomorrow, french. I would've had ROTC, but we took that one early. Yeah, a mid term for friken ROTC. stupid huh? I took my science and math ones today. Both were hard as fuck. Still have to finish my science one on thursday. Well, like ac/dc said, it's a long way to the top if you want to rock and roll. so i guess i better get crackin. peace out. Current Mood: tired of all of this bull shit Current Music: Led Zeppelin- "Black Dog", live at the LA Forum (Comment on this)